What it means to be a Mom

It has just really hit home with me hard all day today how much my life has changed in just a little over three months. I feel like I waited my whole adult life away WAITING to find the right partner to start a family with. And then once I found him I feel like my pregnancy lasted a lifetime in itself. I wanted Kaden so badly for so long, and I just couldn't imagine what he would be like or what it would really feel like or be like to be a mom. My baby boy has completely changed me, from the way I see things to the way I feel about things. He has allowed me to experience God's love like I never dreamed possible. I know that I would do absolutely anything in the world, no matter the cost or price to pay, for this sweet baby. I think that allows me to see how much God loves each of us. As much a momma loves her baby, that is how much God loves me. Wow!

Being a mom has put so many things into a different perspective for me. I understand grief now because I can not imagine the pain and suffering of loosing a child, and I grieve so much more for Montana as I fall more and more in love with Kaden because I know the heartache and pain Kim must experience each and every day.

Kaden has touched my life and my heart in ways that I never knew I missed or existed for that matter. It is truly impossible to explain my love for my baby boy. He melts my heart, he makes me laugh, he makes me cry I love him so much. My life is so much richer because of Kaden. Because I am now called mom.